As Sheldon said in S3E2, "I'm not crazy! My mother had me tested!"
Of course, in my case it was various pressures from certain people which made me wonder if something was wrong with me, but apparently I'm ridiculously normal, if a complete "nerdy, techy, creative geek." While I have many, many aspie-tendencies and characteristics, I do not have the "important" ones to the level of pathology. This is, oddly enough, rather disconcerting to me. On an immediate level I was hoping that a dx would force some issues to change which now remain completely out of my control (and not in a good way).
Oh, and not only do I not have ADHD, but my attention span, attention to detail and ability to focus are (depending on which specific item we're looking at) in the 90th to 98th percentile. So ... far above average for my age.
This is all good, right?
To be honest, I feel a bit like Gonzo from the Muppets. You know, the Muppets from Space movie from 1999 where Gonzo claims his breakfast cereal is talking to him? The whole flick is essentially about him finding other beings like him - his birth family, more or less. And at the end, he has to decide between his birth family and his Muppet family. Except I still haven't really figured out where I fit in. Mostly I don't.
"One day we'll find it, the rainbow connection ... the lovers ... the dreamers ..."
"...and me." :)February 1, 2011 7:10 PM
In the end...it is not about fitting in, it is about being a peace with who you are...whatever spectrum of the rainbow you are in.February 1, 2011 10:08 PM